even as someone who grew up in suburban america that mindset has perplexed me, honestly. like i have hangups about food waste and things like that that stem from just knowing and thinking about how a real animal died to feed me, and i don't want to waste its sacrifice. but it's not anything i was explicitly taught so much as just a connection that seems so simple and obvious to me, it's still incredibly weird to find other people who don't seem to, say, think of beef and cattle as even the same thing besides in some vague abstract sense.
i feel like this is also connected to almost everyone i've met who hears i've had things like tripe and liver immediately get grossed out and weird about it like. they're just parts of the animal? a steer isn't just a walking meat cube?

idk. on the other hand i don't think it'd be easy to bring myself to kill an animal directly, but my prime concern with that is i don't actually trust myself to do a good enough job to end its life quickly and without pain. maybe that's not really any better than any other reason for not being able to, but like. i dunno. most of my feelings and experiences on this topic seem to diverge a lot from other people raised in the suburbs so. idk what to make of any of it, i just also wish so many people here weren't so strange about food and where it comes from, and who gets it to their plate.