I will keep trying, but it's... like. It's bizarrely demoralizing to keep making all these posts about FFXIV (my current special interest for the last 3 years) and no one cares no one wants to talk about this game which is supposedly the single most popular piece of media on earth right now, and yet I remain... isolated.

I just. I dunno, I miss having things in common with people I guess. It was nice. I don't know where (if) the FFXIV fandom exists on here or how to find it or anything about it and I certainly don't have the time/energy/stability to try and develop such a space myself. Holy shit, I barely managed to get out of bed at all today.

It all just leaves me feeling angry, alone, and ready to commit arson. I wrote so many excruciating essays about this exact scenario once the sex-bans started going from shitty teens fantasizing about authoritarianism, to actual bans on previously public platforms and boy howdy. Living through it is exactly as miserable and near lethal as predicted.

I just want to talk about my toy...