Man, I don't even know

The notes from my visit which include the discussion of my paralysis and hallucinatory symptoms, which is to say, the primary narcoleptic symptoms as well as the suggestion that I go in for narcolepsy testing, are suspiciously absent from my records apparently.

I'm really like. I'm just exhausted.

You'd think after so many years of doctors fucking me I'd be used to it but I'm just...

Whatever, I guess.

Whatever.

I know what the specialist said. I took notes. I'll tell my GP myself, I'll get the test referrals myself, I'll cut the specialist out of the process entirely, I'll do it my own damn self just like I always have, fucking fuck it.