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[zenolalia]

The nurse today gave me a nasty look, but at least not a lecture, when I admitted I don't exercise because I'm too tired. I sleep 12-14 hours a day and gave nonstop headaches. When and where would I find the energy? To say nothing of my actual, literal fucked knee and the fact that moderate heart rate increases and parasympathetic nervous activation cause me to have panic attacks, hallucinations, flashbacks, migraines, and what may or may not be absence seizures.

The neurologists decided I have sleep apnea because in overweight. I don't snore, wake myself up, have breathing difficulties, dry mouth, breathlessness, stop breathing, gasp, have high blood pressure, have a large neck girth, have family history of apnea, or sleep on my back. But I'm fat and tired. So it's apnea.

I'm so tired of doctors.

Even with a good primary care doctor, the fact is, she's almost an hour drive away, and my specialists are so such a crap shot, and I'm just so tired.

I'm so tired and I can't ever sleep enough

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[cutecabaret]

wasn't getting your gallbladder removed supposed to make you less tired? ono i'm sorry that it might be something even worse and that you still haven't gotten everything figured out - i hope you find a doctor that doesn't suck, i'm still looking myself.

[zenolalia]

The gallbladder removal did stop the, like, sudden crippling abdominal spasms that left me curled up on the floor screaming any time I ate, so I'm calling it a win. But unfortunately, it did not have the desired knock on effects for everything else, no.